Control...

Dec. 15, 2015

She just couldn’t for the life of her control her anger...and much worse she worked in a field where she encountered many….many people from all walks of life….too many if you asked her….too many that were rude….disrespectful and hard to deal with and it seemed she always got the ones that had a chip on their shoulder…that had a bone to pick with someone and she was going to be that ONE….

There were two incidents that stuck out in her head….the first….this man who felt it was her responsibility to find his lost phone and although she could have deff made more of an effort to go see about it….she had just had a problem with him pouring his beer on the floor because she had to cut him off and really helping him was the last thing on her mind….and it showed….and he lite into to her….she knew she should stay calm and not feed the fire that was burning in her....the fire that was now flowing out of him but she just couldn’t and she went in too…..how embarrassing….she’s yelling across the room…arguing with a man with no sense and very low judgement…he had been drinking heavily….

The second….the next day….another man that had to be cut off…he’s not happy and makes it known that’s the case….so what does she do….use the “police” card….”I will call the police on you” she says and that’s really all she wrote…..he goes in…tells her about herself and how he owns a night club and blah…blah…blah….and he wanted to talk to someone else…so she grabs her fellow manager and they all get to talking but she just can’t control herself….she wants to make sure they know that she is pissed…that they are terrible people and that the police are coming to deal with them….the police come and they are taken outside…she feels like she won….like she showed them….

The morning comes and she can feel it….the stress and toll that anger puts on your body….she’s almost sore and her head is aching and as she lays there she kind of gets it…..kind of sees where she is going wrong….she certainly did not win…she certainly did not “show them”….she had really loss....she allowed them to control her actions…to control her mental…to make her do things her mother wouldn’t be proud of…heck….she wasn’t proud of them and she knew she had to STOP…..had to get control of herself otherwise they would continue to control her….

My father always told me…you can’t control what people do but you can control how you react to them…control how much influence they will have over you and your mental….this is a MUST to fight against people….a MUST..…by any means necessary….by all means necessary….but we are all imperfect and don’t always have it together so when it does happen…..and you give up that piece of you……make sure you take a moment to step back….to think about what it and they really mean to you…then react accordingly….cause they most deff will as well……

Dedication....Power...Kanye West....Hehe