That Man....

She just could not shake that man.....everybody knows that when you have history with someone it can be tough and she almost felt guilty for even thinking about peacein out and leaving him to all his extras..... but she really had no reason to feel bad at all.....he was off the chain.....a self-righteous prick...all about his pleasure and his pleasure alone.....really....she thought his attitude came from a lack of confidence....he seemed to be intimidated by anyone doing anything  of substance and he regularly made comments that she felt were aimed at making her feel that she wasn't good enough.... that she wasn't doing enough but if you asked anyone else that knew her...they would tell you something different...they would tell you that she was hard working...ambitious...smart...beautiful and could do anything she set her mind to.....she knew that as well but it seemed that he was always looking to make her question that...always looking to make her forget who she really was and that was so tough for her cause he was so special to her.....but she would have none of that....she had worked hard to get to where she was..to get comfortable in her skin...to love all her curves...to love all her flaws....to love herself period and she would let no one take that growth that she had worked so hard to gain... really she thought there was maybe a deep rooted problem...something else...something that had nothing to do with her and she wanted so bad to fix it...to fix him...be there for him but he had to want to be there for himself...to fix himself.....he had to want the growth and the love that she had to offer...that life had to offer....

ONE thing I do know is that misery certainly loves company....certainly and it simply boils down to your choice to allow it in your world....I truly feel for this young lady....it' so hard to shake some relationships....especially those that may not be the most healthy for you.....when you're scared that they may not make it.....you feel responsible for them but the reality of it all is that you're NOT responsible for them....the reality of it is that you must focus on yourself and make sure that you are whole person...a person confident and sure of themselves before you can even think about looking out for someone.....

Unfortunately that young lady still hasn't figured things out when it comes to THAT MAN but she does know that no matter what she will be happy...she will be happy with her life..herself....her choices weather he stays around or not....!!!

....Dedication...One Time....Marian Hill....